I think if i had to pinpoint one flaw that most keeps me from doing and being all i can, it would have to be my super-human ability to doubt myself.
There aren't many areas of life where doubt and second guessing doesn't factor in my life {is what i'm doing or writing really relevant, intelligent, informed, or am i simply spewing the ridiculous randomness in my head?}. the job {Job i am doing isn't as good as the last one. what if i never have a creative thought ever again? what if they find out i don't have a clue what i'm doing?}. even conversations that i have {did i really say that? he's going to think i am an idiot. why did i have to open my mouth at all?}.
All these things and more are subject to the harsh and glaring critic living inside my head,whose only job, it seems, is to constantly tell me that what i'm doing isn't good enough, creative enough, intelligent enough... or simply enough.
it's far too easy to let the questioning, negative voices actually run the show that is my life. and besides, i don't even like living like this! if i was wearing a underwear that was so painful as to ruin my day, i wouldn't hesitate to change them. so why have i allowed doubt to inconvenience, and at times, even sabotage me?
i want to be done with the incessant self-doubting. i want to stop second guessing myself, and begin trusting in the gifts that God has given me. and if i make a mistake, then i pick up and go on from there.
there are enough things in life that serve to derail you from your purpose... there's no sense in adding to it.....
ths happens wid me too.. bt thr r positive voices too, dont they run in ur head? actually only they can stop these negative voices from ruining ur life! try to b more optimistic.. yes n believe in urself.
ReplyDeletethrz one more thng in u, dnt mind if i share it here, u dnt believe in othrs too.. i mean at least in those hu r really close to u.. tats a human nature acually, bt at least try to think about wat they said, n thn do wat u want to. u r surrounded by so many well wishers of urs, thrs a gr8 quality here in u. i mean u dnt believe in othrs wid ta matters related to u whn they tell u..
n thr r so many gr8 qualities in u, jus try to find ta positive voices in ur head, strengthen thm, n make thm win over ta negative voices.. u wil hav ta success touching ur feet fo sure!! my best wishes r wid u..
dats vry true wat asmita di wrote..try n b more optimistic n believe in ur self jus do ur part f wrk n sucess will cme behind u.n jus remember dat u hve gone there only 2 work nt 2 settle over there.
ReplyDeleteu urself dnt knw wat a gr8 person u r jus dnt bother wat others say bout u. u knw dat u r d best.......n dnt be like a pessimist
i wil always pray 4 u......
i totally agree wid asmi di.. y r u being so like a pessimist.n y do u bother bout others jus f**k dem....u knw u r d best n remember u hve only gne there 2 wrk not 2 settle there lol.........jus b urself n alwaz b positive.. i want 2 see ma old rahmat bhai wen he cmes bk....njoy ur days there n f all of them there(sorry me usin sooo many skangbt seriously u r really vry sweet n every1 likes u d way r.......be positive n think optimistic........i alwaz pray 4 u......
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